Summer roles along and before you know it I have ignored by blogging life for about a month.. I really don't think that this is a problem but it sure does help me to think through things if I at least write a little bit. I have been busy working for a while, hopefully that continues, I really need the money.
But, anyway, within the last few weeks I have been really struggling because of some things that I really can't control that have to do with the music career I so willingly gave up in order to go to college. OK, so really it wasn't much of a music career, it was much more of a high school band that was really freaking good. Well I left the band to go to Moody, good choice, I know thats where I need to be, but it has been hard in the last few weeks to see that. I know what I am doing there and going through is great, however, the band I was in (About A Mile) just got done making a full length album. I am realy excited for it don't think that I'm not. I have listened to it, and I can't wait to get my copy because it is fantastic for three teenagers. REALLY! it is awesome musically, lyrically, pretty much every way. It was very professionally done. They are also playing at Alive festival this year. A show that could possibley really have them take off. Like if the right people hear them there, then well they could get very popular, very quickly. If that doesn't happen then any one that has connection that hears the CD will def. hook them up.

See I love that they are doing so well. But, I keep thinking about how I left all of that to go to school at do something that, at the current time, seems to be less productive, and less... well, important. Of course I don't know that, God has a plan for me at Moody and beyond that, but it is really hard to keep that in mind when I have this figuratively breathing down my neck. It also bugs me that all this happened after I left the band, I mean really, I didn't have that big of a role in it anyway. I was the worship leader of the band, I could play four chords and get the words right to most of the songs, and I could pray at the end if I needed to. NOT to say that this is not important, cause worship leading is the best, and worshipping in song is seriously my favorite thing to do, but as far as the band stuff goes I didn't do a whole lot, I didn't write the lyrics or music. I just played and sang echos.. I can't even sing harmony (although, I am working on that now).. It just kinda seems like the are better without me in the band. Maybe that is not true, but it seems like it to me...

I want to start to get back into my music thing and start writing, but I don't know if I'm really cut out for that, I've never been much of a lyricist... is that even a word? if it is , sweet. If not it probably proves my point... anyway, I really need to remember that I need to trust in God for my future and not look to what could have been. But, it is so hard to not think I could have been apart of something that seems to be doing a lot for God, something that is good, and that I love...
expecially when they come out with a killer CD.

I really want to encourage you to check out the music!!! www.myspace.com/aboutamileband