In the last 48 hours I've folded over a thousand boxes. That is actually at realistic guess at the actual amount. I've become rather good at it too. Not that it is something to be extremely proud of or, for any matter, be ashamed of. It is, simply, what it is. I wish that I could be doing something different, or that the boxes would talk to me. But, I'm not and they don't so I am stuck folding them and placing them on the slowest moving assembly line ever, that may be an exaggeration.
It is hard to put into words what I am currently feeling. Not that I really want the internet to know what I am currently feeling, or ever feeling. If I really wanted anyone and everyone to know that, well, I would be a dunderhead.
My past few weeks have been really sweet. Going to the beach with the Browns what amazing, and leading worship at CAC this week went really well. So, you could say my summer is going well. Yet, I feel the pressure of school rising from the depths waiting to crush my heart and soul as I leave for another 8 month torture session 4 states away from home. More pressure is here because there hasn't been a super steady job this summer. Let alone the 2 or 3 I wanted. So, I need money for a lot of different things. The problem is I haven't been making any. So, who knows if I'll be able to come home for thanksgiving to not..
School will bring some money with it but that is it. Not a whole lot.
The problem is that I have been making plans and wanting to do so many things. I need to just let it up to God. And hopefully they will work out to the best.
I live in a house for five, all on my own. I don't know why my parents chose to spend their summer at our camper, which is about the size of the room I am currently in, instead of our wonderful house. But, at any rate, I am here by my self for most of the summer. Which was kinda creepy at first, but now it's not to bad. I can play guitar to when ever I want and eat and watch whatever I want on TV. It's great really. Although, I have been working so I can't do whatever I want. I had a 13 hour work day yesterday, it didn't feel like it though. Call me crazy, but it wasn't bad at all, kinda fun.
anyway, too lazy to keep writing today.
Smitty.
